Let's not mince words, 2009 was a really tough year. I'm not going to say that it was a tough year for me, because that would be ignoring the difficulties that various others faced as well. So, I will just say that 2009 was a tough year as a whole. The best thing that happened in the year of 2009 was that at 11:59:59 p.m. on December 31st, it was one second from ending. My goal with 2010 is to make it my best year yet and reorganizing the way that I've prioritized things in my life.
I am making it my personal goal and objective to be true to myself and only entertain friendships or relationships that are in line with this goal. My 2010 is an invitation only soiree'. By this assertion, I mean that if you are not concerned with my well being, then don't bother trying to crash this party. What does it mean to be concerned with my well being? I'm so glad that you asked. Anyone who is concerned about me wants whats best for me in general and only accepts the best from themselves. I'm of the opinion that iron sharpens iron. If you focus on your success and aren't actively impeding mine, you are then creating a situation that could foster success from us both. Get It? Got It? Good!!!!
This year I'm giving it up to GOD!!! I've so often assumed that if I were to change something about myself or just wait on it, everything would work itself out. I've learned that GOD is so necessary and that I've only enjoyed a surface relationship with him. It's time for me to dig deep and truly have a relationship with the father. If anyone in my life isn't willing to support this, won't receive an invite to 2010.
You've got to claim it to obtain it in the 2k10........In closing here is a nugget of inspiration to assist and getting your year off to the right start:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDe6g3-r_oo
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I really appreciated this and I can relate to a lot of what you said. 2009 was tough for me too because it was the year I fully realized I don’t want to spend my whole life being a lawyer and my 1L year was not a phase; I just really, honestly do not enjoy law school. On top of that, I felt like I couldn’t really talk about it because a lot of my friends are applying and getting their situations together in other ways and I’m pretty sure people think it’s obnoxious when I complain about how my life is so terrible because I’m in grad school. I get that, it sounds ridiculous.
ReplyDeleteSo I did a lot of soul searching (and reading O Magazine) trying to figure out what was actually going to make me happy and I ended up asking God as a last resort when I was at my wit’s end.
For a long time I *refused* to let God take control of my life because I was scared that he’d ask me to do something I really didn’t want to do. Like if you ask God what you should be doing with your life and he says “I want you to go teach English to impoverished orphans in the rural hills of Czechoslovakia” you can’t really be like “Ummm, I was kind of hoping to live somewhere more metropolitan and drive a BMW. So no thanks.” So I just didn’t ask. And part of me believed that if I just kept living my life the way I wanted to, God would eventually step in if I got too far off my intended career path. Then I realized 3 things.
1) Jesus is a gentleman. He’s not going to crash my party and guide me into doing something unless I ask him to.
2) He wants what’s best for me.
3) He also wants me to be happy. So he’s probably not going to plan a career
for me that he knows would make me miserable.
Once I realized that, I promptly asked God what I should be doing with my life and his response was so funny, so appropriate, and in restrospect, so obvious, that I was like “Why did I waste so much time stressing out about this? I should have just asked him a long time ago!” Ask me about it sometime and I’ll tell you if you wanna know.
Anyway, I’m writing a novel here but I really enjoyed this. Thanks!