Apparently Earnest means something marked by or showing deep sincerity or seriousness. Although I know I haven’t given an earnest effort in getting to know Earnest or more importantly letting others meet the whole Earnest. Throughout my life I have always attempted to expose those qualities that others felt were acceptable or desirable even if it wasn’t my true nature—and in certain cases in which I lacked a characteristic I would simply fabricate my perception because after all “perception is reality.” This cliché is true but society never expounds on the side effects from creating these facades—controlled schizophrenia.
At a certain point you start to crack because you don’t know which personality is the real you. This year I will concentrate on only wearing my true self—the good and the bad—around those I interact with. Someone once told me that true confidence is displayed when an individual is comfortable with his/her real self, the self that the individual doesn’t think anyone knows about. I believe more confidence will be displayed in my own life when I grow to accept my humble background and “outsider” accent, as well as the traits that I don’t even like about myself.
So as long as I continue to embrace my intelligence, athleticism, charisma I also need to acknowledge and examine my bad attitude, arrogance, and pretentious behavior. If someone isn't willing to love me beyond my strengths and weaknesses, then that person was probably more interested in one of my facades than the true Earnest.
I think this is a great way to start the new year. There is really nothing better than realizing that its totally ok to be yourself....life is so much easier when you're not confined by other people's opinions and expectations of who you are and what you should be, how you show behave etc.
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