Could Someone Please Flip the Switch? (Everette)

I'm going to give everyone fair warning, but this one is going to be slightly disjointed, but just hear me out.....





I have recently noticed that I'm developing a pretty serious case of tunnel vision, this is pretty amazing considering my notoriously short attention span. I've become so focused on my personal development, that simple things in life have gone all but completely unnoticed. I was watching television yesterday and saw a commercial for the 2008 Summer Olympics. Though I'm not a huge fan of the Olympics, I was amazed by the fact that I had completely forgotten that an event of international importance was being held during this calendar year. This just brought to focus the fact that many things that don't directly impact my advancement along that way which we can only pass once (life) are pushed to the side in my never ending quest to optimize this experience and hopefully do the same for someone else.
I remember that hot sunny day last May. I was boiling in my blue gown, adorned with my various organizational decorations, and that mortarboard cap that I had worked 22 years to attain. I joked to a friend that this outfit cost my family almost $100,000 and you couldn't tell me that I wasn't fly. this day signified my passage from youthful obscurity into an adult life full of endless possibilities. Possibilites, answers, and promise. I don't doubt that I still have limitless possibilities and boundless promise, but where are the answers? As Oprah finished her speech, I was positive that her last words would be, "Everette, this is what you are supposed to do with your life....." I sat there with bated breath and waited, but this revelation never came. She did share various life lessons, but none of them simplified this transition that I was going to participate in for the next year. The switch has yet to be flipped.....
I can see that it's getting simpler day by day, but definately not yet clear. I feel that the new simplicity is coming from my willingness to accept that none of this is in my control, so I'm just handing it over to the father, and hanging in for the ride...........