05/06/08 (Earnest)
I’m at a very interesting point in my life right now. Despite now being an official contributing adult to society, I have never been more confused about what direction I would like to take my life. I have never experienced a more introspective period in my time here on earth. I thought undergrad would be the period in which I pose questions daily in hopes of finding truth, happiness, and discovering who Earnest is. Unfortunately after graduation, all the answers didn’t immediately come. Of course I have been blessed since May 2007, but I’m still not as confident in the direction that I’m going, as I believed that I would be. A year out of school and I’m still thinking where do I want to live? What is my passion? What is my purpose? Who are you? Are you the person that God made you to be or are you the person that you believe people want you to be?
But this is life. It’s comforting to know that everyone goes through this self questioning process. Everyone is going through life for the first time (I hope so anyway…). With that said these are very important and influential years of my life. Like I have stated since the New Year my prayer life needs to improve because I need some wisdom and discernment to decide how I want to see my life at 25, 30, 40, and 50.
It’s unfair but this 23 year old Earnest is making decisions for Mr. Sweat at 30 and even senior citizen Mr. Sweat at 65. I feel as though I am being pulled in so many different directions. Part of me wants to stay in
So where will I go? I’m living proof how drastically ones reality can change by decisions you make at a younger age. I never thought as an 18 year old that I would be working on Wall Street at 23—because honestly I couldn’t think that far. But I do thank that kid because I definitely am thankful for my life.
I just pray that I appreciate the decisions my current self makes at the age of 30…
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